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Gonna be cold this week.

Post by MidoriMeadows » February 13th, 2006, 9:15 pm

It's supposed to get below freezing much of the week with a high of 35 by the end of the week. Weatherman said it might snow tomorrow and Fri.

Someone remind me why I should be happy that a guy who wouldn't work left me. All this cold weather coming and no one to keep me warm.
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Post by Doc » February 13th, 2006, 9:24 pm

Be happy he is Gone!

Grab a few extra blankets and cuddle up with teddy.. Life is too short to waist it with some looser!

Sorry but as you know, i speak what pops into my mind.. :wink:
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Post by MidoriMeadows » February 13th, 2006, 9:37 pm

That's why I asked. I'm just lonely. I know I could walk into a bar and take someone home but I'm not like that. There are very few men I've ever considered settling down with. I have lots of friends that are guys but few I'd ever go out with like that just because. Nothing wrong with them, just don't feel that way. There really aren't many men that get me excited like that. I sometimes wonder if I'll ever meet anyone else.
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Post by bobsclassicarz » February 13th, 2006, 10:04 pm

Sharon, you may be surprised...The right guy will appear when you least expect it...Thats how I met my wife 27 years back, stopped in for a meal at a Red Barn restaurant, and BOOM,there she was.....totally unexpected!!!! :roll:

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Post by RS69cam777 » February 13th, 2006, 10:05 pm

got down to 18 this morning, and is 29 now.


and they say it will be in the 80's by fri'sat?

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Post by JR » February 13th, 2006, 10:17 pm

Here's the e-mail we got this afternoon about the up coming weather in the Pacific NorthWest

ADVERSE WEATHER ADVISORY

Date: Mon., Feb. 13, 2006

Time Period: Thursday, Feb. 16th through Sunday, Feb. 19th

Message: MUCH COLDER WEATHER ON THE WAY. . . . .

After relatively mild temperatures the past month and a half, a dramatic change is on the way. A weak cold front passing through the area this afternoon will turn the flow aloft to a north to south orientation, which will begin filtering a colder air mass into the area. Another weak system late Tuesday and Wednesday will bring slightly colder air with it. Both of these systems look rather dry, with a few snow showers over the mountains. The big change comes on Thursday as a very cold arctic air mass migrates southwestward from central Canada to the Pacific Northwest. Strong northeast winds (20-30 with gusts to 40 mph) will develop Thursday afternoon and night as the arctic front moves through. Temperatures will fall into the mid 30's by Thursday afternoon, and upper teens/low 20's Thursday night and Friday morning. Wind chill readings will lower to 5 to 15 degrees by late Thursday afternoon, and to 5 below to 5 above zero Thursday night and Friday morning. Again this system looks rather dry, except for possible snow showers Thursday afternoon and evening. High temperatures will struggle to reach the freezing mark Friday, even under sunny skies. Record or near low temperatures are expected over the weekend as winds subside. The current record minimum temperatures for Feb. 17th (Fri.), 18th (Sat.), and 19th (Sun.) are 9,9, and 14 degrees, respectively.

Strong winds may pick up particulates (dust/ash) from several different sources (e.g., agricultural activities, regional range fires, etc). Persons with respiratory problems or allergies may wish to discuss their individual situations with their physicians/allergy specialists to determine the best precautions during wind/dust events.

I got me longhandles ready!

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Post by RS69cam777 » February 13th, 2006, 10:28 pm

I can't take this Fl weather any more.


Iam wondering if the Yankees have brought a curse with them???

Don't know, but it seems that way.

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Post by Doc » February 14th, 2006, 5:56 am

Happiness is a Canadian heading home, with a New Yorker in tow..

Hehehehehe... :thumbleft:
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Post by MidoriMeadows » February 14th, 2006, 11:10 am

I think I intimidate a lot of men. I've been reading a book about relationships and how each sex misunderstands eachother thus causing problems. The author says men need to feel needed, need to take care of someone. Problem is I've taken care of myself in most ways since I was 15. Even while I was married and stayed home to raise the kids, I took care of a lot. I've always been very responsible with money and I think some guys see that as great until they realize that the reason I generally am ok financially is because I'm very careful. I think they want all that money but no sacrifice.

You guys know I have a sense of humor and kick my heels up but I always take care of business. I often can manage things that overwhelm most people. If I'm really determined, which really isn't often, you don't want to go to battle with me. I'm very selective about what I battle about though so it's not like I have to win all the time. I think a lot of guys feel that since I'm really easygoing 99% of the time that I don't stand up for myself. I do, you just have to prod til you find that 1%. I think that's what scared the shit out of my ex. He was never the same after I spent a year 1/2 fighting to get our house built which meant battling 3 government agencies, miles of red tape, and 1/2 the people involved in approving, providing something or whatever. I think that's what drove Leon nuts, he wanted to be the provider but never got off his butt and got a job. So instead I provided.

I think I've resigned myself to the fact that there's a good chance I'll be alone because most people just can't deal with me. It's either that or I have to be something else. I tried that. It doesn't work.
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Post by MidoriMeadows » February 14th, 2006, 9:21 pm

Yeah, I think half my problem is I'm just lonely. I was alone during most of my marriage. I was alone most of the time I was with Leon. I guess I'm tired of it but think that's just the way my life will be. I'm very accomodating most of the time. I really don't have to have my way most of the time. But there are certain things that I fight for, my kids being a big one, and myself. Little things just don't ever matter to me. I don't care what movie we see, or what we have for dinner. It's not that I'm apathetic, I just am very flexible. Not much bothers me. Not much annoys me. There isn't a whole lot that I care about in life. I like to be happy, what's for dinner isn't an issue. I don't have to win arguements. I don't have to be right. Maybe I'm too easygoing and it surprises people when they hit that nerve and disconcerts them. I don't know. You guys put up with me because you don't have to sleep with me.
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Post by Doc » February 15th, 2006, 7:19 am

I think you need a partner that is a professional person like yourself.

In my opinion you fit into the business class of a professional persons life. You are self made and self motivated. You take whatever time is needed to run your business as you see fit, and are dedicated to your business and family.

Then there is the working class of person that puts in their 8 hours or so and are done with work after that. Their life is not as complex as a professionals and spend there time off having fun or whatever. This kind of person usually don't understand the complexity of the professionals life and finances, so there is a clash right there. While that person might be going to a bowling alley, or a bar, you are filling orders and planning your next day.

I would think you will someday meet another professional person like yourself, and the two of you can work together toward joint goals. The rest should fall right into place.

Keep moving forward and don't even think about adjusting your life for someone that don't fit in.

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Post by j-ainc » February 15th, 2006, 11:03 am

I agree with Doc, Don't ever try to fit into anothers idea of what YOU should be.

You are an intelligent hard working INDIVIDUAL. And you will find somebody some day that is suppose to be with you. Quit worrying about it! Enjoy the present and life to the fullest.

You have many things going for you right now! Quit dwelling on the one thing that is out of place.

You have the kids, the cat and Teddy! Plug in the electric blanket and snuggle with Teddy (remember he doesn't fart or snore) :laughing5:

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Post by MidoriMeadows » February 15th, 2006, 11:30 am

I know I have my kids. I enjoy them a lot and really do spend time with them. I think it's hormonal, I get depressed and lonely. Today I feel good. I'll probably be fine for a few weeks.

Eventually, some guy will come along who is worthy. I know I just need to be patient. Would probably help if I actually left my house to go somewhere besides work.

One weather forcast says we're having a high of 28 on Friday. Brrrrrr.
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Post by Doc » February 15th, 2006, 11:52 am

One weather forcast says we're having a high of 28 on Friday. Brrrrrr.

Hmmm.. Good weather to be under the covers doin the humpety humpety..

Now far be it me to start any shit.. But! :cherry:
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Post by markn » February 15th, 2006, 12:44 pm

Sharon, u will meet a great guy, it just feels like a long time when u r looking,LOL. u can meet a good guy in a bar, not all guys r looking for a 1 niter. alot of guys r proud when there sig. other is doing well. i have been with my wife 20 years, early in our relationship i allways made more, she is a RN who now is V. P. of a hospital. lately she makes WAY more than me, i love it very proud of her. i tell people im a used car salesman,she gets pissed, im a mortgage broker, but i love selling cars on the side. she is very white collor, im a good ol boy fromDelaware. and i love telling everybody she is the boss of the house.
Anyway, keep ur chin up HE IS OUT THERE

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Post by MidoriMeadows » February 15th, 2006, 1:08 pm

Mark, that's encouraging. I know some men don't feel threatened.

Doc, quit it, here I'm just settling down and you put ideas into my head. You know, women are cyclical so I have a week where I really really want to do that, then I have about 2 days where I'm really depressed I didn't get to, then I'm fine (ok not totally out of mind, just not as bad) for 3 weeks. Don't stir the pot!
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Post by Doc » February 15th, 2006, 1:38 pm

Hey Baby.. Was jest kiddin around :lol:

I haven't had any in a long time!

Guess that shows the situation my relationship is in!

But you know we all love you (except maybe T), and hope to see you happy soon :)
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Post by MidoriMeadows » February 15th, 2006, 2:31 pm

If you 've gone a long time without then one of you needs to decide it won't remain that way. Why be married if you don't get along well enough to enjoy eachother? Lack of sex is almost always a sign of some deeper problem.

Ex couldn't physically, but it was the fact that there were a whole lot of other problems. Just cause he couldn't get it up was no excuse for not cuddling etc. Since he really did have physical problems I went a year without and probably twice a year for a couple years before that. That's really hard for me. I once put a guy in the hospital. I think I nearly did that to Leon when I first met him.
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Post by markn » February 15th, 2006, 2:39 pm

HEY NOW!!!! i thought this was a auto forum, not a porn chat LOL !!!!!
sold my formula firebird last nite to a real nice kid, gave it to him for less than another guy said he would give me , but that guy was a ass. this kid could not believe how nice it was. was telling me about all the junk he has been looking at.

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Post by MidoriMeadows » February 15th, 2006, 2:57 pm

Yeah, I cut the kids some slack too. It's nice to see someone younger have the initiative to do worthwhile things.

If Doc gets to stir me up, I get to stir him up. I can probably give him a heart attack from across the country if I wanted to.
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Post by MidoriMeadows » February 15th, 2006, 2:58 pm

Guy didn't have a stroke, they just thought it was very possible given his symptoms. Turned out it was exhaustion and some strained muscles.
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Post by JR » February 15th, 2006, 11:08 pm

A whole year without and probably twice a year for a couple years before that. Damn, Catholic priests and nuns get more than that!

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Post by MidoriMeadows » February 15th, 2006, 11:34 pm

Yeah, now you see why I nearly killed Leon. I sometimes wonder if that last stroke was caused by me.

I'm happy today. I got home and Scis's pkg was waiting for me and there was a message on my machine about that job!!! I tried calling but they were closed by that time. Left message that I'll call during the day tomorrow. Phone interview!!!!! Given they don't actually have an office out here that's probably THE interview.

Good job and chocolate might actually make up for no sex. He sent me a book too. I barely started reading it, I think I'm really going to like it. He even sent me a valentines card that made all 3 of us laugh. It's been years since anyone sent me a valentines card.
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Post by JR » February 16th, 2006, 7:11 am

Don't forget to getdressed up for the phone interview.

Hope it goes well!

Might be why he had problems, too much woman to handle and couldn't keep up.

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Post by Doc » February 16th, 2006, 7:53 am

I just don't give a damd any more..

After giving every dollar back to eBay in fees that i earned the old fashioned way, I went flat broke, didn't even own a car! Sold the car my wife was driving before that to pay eBay! I kept believing that eBay was good and it was just a dry spell & things would pick up.. They didn't!

I get up and go to work, 6 sometimes 7 days a week.. The past couple of days i have put in 12 hour days, and the average is 10. All i am interested in is the $$$!

As for my relationship it sucks! But they say marriage is for better or worse, I take care of her, when she has been too drunk i have taken the keys away and listened to the abuse because she don't have enough common sense to know any better. I have to stop and buy beer and smokes lots of times on the way home, I pay the rent, provide her a car, wind up paying her car insurance, the power company turned the power off when i was sick last week, she had not paid the bill! She makes over 1200.00 month take home but is always broke! When i had pain meds i had to share them with her or take the verbal abuse! Now i have none and are in such pain but i keep going, and try to keep a positive attitude!

I'm old and tired, and with my health in the shape it is i probably wont live more than another 5 years.. Wife has life insurance on me and is probably just waiting on me to die.. Otherwise i have nothing to get! And i really don't care what eBay or anyone else thinks.. Because i really don't give a fuck any more!!

Like i told Bill Cobb, When i die, bury me face down so you can kiss my fat ass! And they can stick the sellers fees i owe up there ass too!! Because i really don't give a fuck about that either!!!

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Post by j-ainc » February 16th, 2006, 11:12 am

Now thats Why I keep coming back here!! :happy1:

It's all about the warm and fuzzy feelings :love4:

And how everybody lives in that utopia feeling! Where everything is perfect :love7:

Oh Shit, My Bad that was the 60's :tard:

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Post by MidoriMeadows » February 16th, 2006, 11:17 am

I stayed married for 20 years to an alcoholic who was verbally abusive and then became physically abusive. I stayed because I said for better or worse, etc etc. I'm quite religious and I was married in a church. I felt that I told God I'd stick it out so I did. I had ulcers, I was depressed, I was suicidal, my kids were starting to have problems. I realized God never meant for me to be abused. Since I threw him out ex is doing a little better. I was his scapegoat. It was my fault he did all those things so he never tried to improve. He's still got all sorts of problems but I think in some ways things are better for him. If nothing else he no longer feels responsible for me and the kids and it takes the pressure off him. Is that really good? No, the girls hate him. He will die alone because he just sits in his apt hating most of the world.

Doc, you have so much love and life in you. You deserve better. I let Leon run over me with his problems and they started to consume me. Better or for worse only counts when both people are trying. Perhaps the biggest favor you can do for her is set your foot down. For years I enabled Steve's problems by buying him beer. I finally quit. Did he stop drinking? No, but I felt better. I pushed him to go to AA and he wouldn't. I tried. One day all my try was gone. Did I learn? No, I let Leon run over me a bit before I set my foot down. But I did set my foot down.

Sometimes you owe it to yourself to have a happy life. Sometimes by setting an example you can help those you love find what they need. Sometimes you just need to find it for yourself. As heartbroken as I was when Leon left I'm actually pretty happy. Life sometimes hands you lessons whether you wanted them or not. No matter how painful and confusing things can be, there generally is a lesson there.

What would I do without my Doc anyway?
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Post by MidoriMeadows » February 16th, 2006, 11:19 am

JR, told you I was intimidating. or is that insatiable?
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Post by MidoriMeadows » February 16th, 2006, 1:11 pm

Doc,

Do I need to come over and slap you around a bit? Look at some of the things you tell me then tell them to the mirror. I love you and want you to be happy.
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Post by markn » February 16th, 2006, 1:23 pm

WOW.... everybody is unloading today. i have read the EB boards for years but never jumped in. i feel like i know Doc, Tony and the rest.
Doc i think you r one of the smartest and honest guys around, i grew up in car dealerships in Del. im only 40 but respect guys that deserve it, and u r one of the good guys just from reading what u have to say. so i hope things get better FAST for u. it sounds like u work for a good guy in a nice shop. Sharon reading the boards it sounds like alot of guys like the person u r, so i think it will be ez to meet a local guy. i hope its soon.

So, i hope things get better fast, but i wanted u to know that just reading what u guys have to say, peaple that have never meet u, like ,respect and r rooting for u..........................

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Post by RS69cam777 » February 16th, 2006, 9:40 pm

Doc, it's none of my bees wax, But just a little friendly advice,


You need to set some money aside every week and don't touch it, and don't tell anyone, just act as if if don't have it.

Don't cut yourself short but even it out, and let her pay some of the bills,

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Post by MidoriMeadows » February 16th, 2006, 9:57 pm

Why is it that there is so often one person who gives all, and one who takes all? I've been wondering about that. I've had guys who've sucked the life out of me. Doc seems to give and give. I was wondering today if somehow we make them like that or do we just find ones like that or is there something in us that puts us in that position? It's obvious why they're attracted to us, we give, but why do we let them do this? I know several other people like this. What happens when 2 of us get together? Is it some kind of disaster with us tripping over eachother to give more? I don't know. The mysteries in life.
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Post by MidoriMeadows » February 16th, 2006, 11:12 pm

Oh man, it's getting cold out there. Yeah, I'm bettin on the high of 28 tomorrow. Neither of the girls brought in wood. No one's cranking up the furnace, I had a $200 electric bill last month.

Hope the well house doesn't freeze. I better go plug the heat tape in, I hate not having water. They're expecting the electric to go out though too. Luckily we've dried out some so maybe we won't have the trees falling into the power lines.

Shit, cold weather like this is meant to snuggle in front of the fire with some cocoa. No one to snuggle with, little wood in the house for the fire, AND I have to go to OSHA required CPR class on Sat.

:cat: Oh that's so cute. Guess that's what I have to snuggle up to.
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Post by JR » February 17th, 2006, 7:01 am

It's 4:00am in he morning, 17 degrees out with winds 35 mph and gusts up to 50 mph. It's too damn early and my day off, gotta go to work.
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Post by Doc » February 17th, 2006, 8:12 am

I think life deals some a hand they can not possibly win.. While others seem to be living the American dream.. Some are just in the wrong place at the wrong time..

Wife was drunk and nasty last night, I just went to bed early to avoid the abuse.. Oh well such is life i guess.. Got to get ready for work..
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Post by j-ainc » February 17th, 2006, 9:47 am

Doc, That is a situation nobody (of either sex) has to accept!

You made the statement that you were financially strapped! at this point!

This is going to really sound off the wall, BUT This is the time for you to reconsider your relationship and Bale if you decide to.

Then you can start rebuilding without an anchor. You are going to have to rebuild either way.

I promise I am not trying to step into your business! Just give you a view from the outside!

Take care of yourself! Man nobody else is!

Just remember that lifes journey is nothing but hi's and lo's. It all depends on how we handle the lo's as to how long we ride the hi's!

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Post by MidoriMeadows » February 17th, 2006, 9:18 pm

BTDT

You can't do anything to make them quit drinking. You can not take it though. That's why I threw ex out. He drank a lot when I met him and he drank more every year. One day he tried to punch my older daughter. He was too drunk and the MS makes him weak and unable to do much any way. She slapped him. She didn't tell me this happened for a few weeks. When she did, I threw him out.

It doesn't get better until they want to make it better. You can't.

I asked my counselor the other day why it is that while all of our goodness, loving, and all isn't contagious but their anger is. They can bring us down but we can't bring them up. She didn't have an answer to that.

I think ex has quit drinking. He realized that he lost his family. Camille spent a lot of time with him, moving him out. She hasn't spoken to him since. Laurel avoids him like the plague. He's alone and unhappy. He's sick. I think he's dying. He'll pretty much do it alone. While I make sure he's basically taken care of, he's not my problem. I don't let him bring me down anymore.

I think something has happened to Leon. If he ever called and asked for my help I'd give it to him if I could but I dont' think he can ever be back in my life like he was.

Now there's a really nice, functional guy halfway across the country. I've known him for 3 yrs, even before Leon. We're both single for the first time since we've known eachother. Hmmmmmm.
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Post by MidoriMeadows » February 17th, 2006, 9:22 pm

Oh, and in case T is reading this he's 10 years younger than me, knows it, doesn't care. Maybe he can keep up with me!
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Post by MidoriMeadows » February 17th, 2006, 9:52 pm

And Doc, I won't apologize for stepping in you bus. First, I've been there and second you step in mine and I don't resent it. You know you do it to me cause you love me and I do it to you for the same reason. Dying for someone else's problems isn't noble. I've sat there with a gun to my head thinking that I couldn't take it anymore. BS. I have health problems that the only explaination the drs can give is long term stress.

I read a lot about PTSD with all of Leon's problems. Long term stress will kill you.

It doesn't mean you have to leave her if you don't want to. It means that something has to change. If it's not her then it's you.

Baby, send me your address. I have something you should read. I read this book and went OMG, that's me. And yes, you'll discover why you're sick and why you're unhappy and why sometimes that gun looks sooooo good. I don't have those gun days anymore. Last one was the night Leon said he was leaving and it lasted about 5 minutes. Then I wanted to shoot him which was probably healthier than myself. Instead, I went home and threw him out of the house for the night. OK I relented since it was about 10 deg. and I would have felt guilty if he died sleeping in his car. But it did take me an hour or 2. I used to stare at that 357 for hours thinking that it would make it all stop. I had my kids to think about or I would have. I look back and think how sad it is that I felt that way.

My life is ever changing, sometimes painful and lonely, sometimes full of wonderful moments. As much as I hurt sometimes I wouldn't trade it, those are the things that make me me. Those are the things that make Laurel's friends come to me for advice, those are the things that give me compassion. Those are the things that make me so attracted to a man who told me about something he did for someone else and that it was the most rewarding experience in his life. Don't know if that's going anywhere but that's ok. It'll be fun finding out.

When life stops being fun for that long, the gun looks good. Doc, you find fun in so much in life, you're so full of love, compassion and life. You need to find that in yourself again. It may help your wife too.
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Post by JR » February 17th, 2006, 10:25 pm

T is reading this he's 10 years younger than me, knows it, doesn't care. Maybe he can keep up with me!


I don't think he could even place a close second. Lacking maturity and experience. He wouldn't know what to do with a real woman, except for a rodeo ride and then roll over and go to sleep.

JR

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